That night we were together
I wished it went forever
And when you where laying next to me
I felt like I was in a fantasy
Being next to someone so beautiful like you
Made my dreams come true
I had so much to say
But I just let you walk away
I was so close
And that what hurts the most
But I don’t know what to do
now I’m not next to you
Because I need you here
I need you near forever & ever.
I love you.
How come some days are so easy?
Then some days I feel like dying
How can I be so strong one day?
Then the next I am holding myself back
Back from picking up the phone
I want to move on
I want to forget you
But I feel like it's impossible
My heart is addicted to you
It knows nothing but you
Once the pain starts to go away
You fill my heart back up with agony
I have to come to terms with myself
That you loved her more
You still want her more
And it's sad cause you really have no idea
That I was so much more true to you
But I was so weak
And she was strong
Why must is be so difficult
How come I can walk away
from anyone but you?
What is done is done and I must let you go
But I am afraid that one day you might return
And crumble me back into peices
I have to stay strong
If and when you return
I will be ready
To crumble you into peices...
Yes love I am the guy to whom you were dreaming &
wondering if things could be like they were before...
only if i could talk to you in person
holding u close through the night...
It was the most amazing night
kissing ur sleepy eyes
kissing ur lips and gazing in ur eyes
feeling ur smile fill my soul
It was a loving of surprise
maybe it was just that i love u jaan forever
and my loving is always so fresh
yes all i want the most is for you to be happy.
Maybe we don't have all these things
my LOVE will always be as fresh for u
in my dreams i will always be with u...
jaan i love you...
When you are kissed by me
Not only it's your mouth
not only just your neck
not only just your forehead,
not only just your back..
When you are kissed by me
I kiss you million times
all desires
all scares
all doubts
till all of them are mine.
I kiss the love you give me
For each and every day
that leaves a smile right on me
when I try to go my way.
I kiss the rights and wrongs of your’s,
making unique from the rest
Although they might cause wrangling
But I know the ending would be the best.
My love for you, you cannot measure
Every moment with you being with me
I treasure.
My love for you I cannot hide
I need you close to my side
Cause I can't stand to be apart
You’re too close to my heart
So please don’t say “NO”
Or my heart will die
The love you can give
Is what let's me live.
Whispers in the night,
From a voice so deep with in.
Saying listen to me cry.
Don't you care for me anymore?
Or am I too much for you to endure?
Lately you've been very unsure
of the path you musttake.
When will you see yourown mistake?
Love me more than you
OR love me.
Listen to me I say,
Pain is who you've become.
Tears have been falling from your eyes,
For quite a while.
It's time for you to grow.
Only by letting go of the pain,
Will you be able to find yourway.
Listen you forgot to put me first.
That’s why it hurts.
I am you wanting to be set free.
Listen!!!
Yes this silence is what you wanted
wondering if things could be like they were before...
only if i could talk to you in person
holding u close through the night...
It was the most amazing night
kissing ur sleepy eyes
kissing ur lips and gazing in ur eyes
feeling ur smile fill my soul
it was a loving of surprise
maybe it was just that i love u jaan forever
and my loving is always so fresh
yes all i want the most is for you to be happy.
Maybe we don't have all these things
my LOVE will always be as fresh for u
in my dreams i will always be with u...
jaan i love you...
I find myself watching sunsets
trying to find your face in them.
I find myself reading books
I've never read before
trying to find new words for you.
I try new foods searching for a recipe
that is just for you
I listen to the birds singing
trying to find a song just for you.
When I feel the wind on my skin
I feel you touching me
When the sun warms my skin
I know it's your breath warming me
When I walk in the rain
I know it's your love showering me
When my feet sinks into the sand
I know that I'm falling for you.
I am in love with you
You are the Queen of my heart
And with each day that passes
I realize that without you
My life feels empty
I crave for your special touch
And long to rest in the comfort of your arms
I am in love with you
And even though my heart breaks
With each day that passes
I realize that you are worth waiting for
And I will wait for day
Until the window is open
And you rule my heart again
I miss you
Since you’ve gone away
Part of me is missing
I feel it as I lay
My head down on my pillow
So soft and comforting
But it doesn’t ease the pain
My heart is still hurting
It aches to see you
One last time
To show how much I love you
Yet, I know this is a crime
To want to bring you back
To this hope forsaken land
For suffer, hurt, and pain
In lieu of God’s Heaven
I can’t help
But to think about the world
You tried to protect me from
When I was a young boy
Sometimes I felt resentment
But I wanted you to see
I understand your actions
You did what you did for me
To guide me
Along my journey in life
When no one else was there
To help me cope with strife
You taught me to be strong
And to be aware
Of people’s bad intentions
Their ability to be unfair
I am today
Who I want to be
I don’t take shit from no one
Are you proud of me?
I’m not the sweet defenseless boy
I started out to be
You made me so much braver
I’m as hard as a rock now
Maybe a little too so
But I wouldn’t trade it for anything
I wanted you to know
I will cherish you
And the memories that I have
Of growing up together
All the good and bad
They make us who we are
And at times they make me laugh
Like, “Hey, Love, look at me!”
While I was falling on my knees
You will always be with me
You notice, the love in my eyes!
You didn’t feel the pain
I was thinking of you
My children will hear all about you
The funniest guy ever known
They’ll be grabbing their sides from the stories
Then, I will slip away alone
To shed tears for you
Which I’m sure will happen at times
To remember our time together
And read these heart-felt rhymes
I have accepted that you’re gone now
And I have to set you free
No more haunting my dreams
Rest peacefully
I would still love your visits, though
Every now and then
You are part of my life
And will be to my end.
I have to let go, so………..I’m letting you go.
I deserve to be happy,
I deserve to feel good from head to toe and not
have someone destroy me
because they think they have a right to me
I am not a thing or an object
I deserve to be free and love who I want
and not be punished because of
what I want or feel
I deserve the peace that comes from
feeling wanted (not by you)
I deserve to gain life experience
I deserve to have a gf (not you)
and get to know her, and talk,
and go out often, and be chased by her,
and be hugged by her,
and be kissed by her.
I have never cuddled
I don't know how it feels to have that security
Teenagers have relationships and I can't have it
I don't want it from you.
You had your chance
You had tons of chances
I want someone else and
I will go to great lengthsto get you out of my life.
I can't live like this
It is making me sick
I deserve my freedom
To not have someone watching me all the time
and controlling all the details in my life
I deserve to have things that are just for me
No one can interfere
They remain my secrets
I deserve my freedom so I can have my health
I deserve to have who I want.
Not someone who is trying
to force their love on me
I want so badly to have my freedom
it is making me sick and
the despair and feeling of helplessness,
like I'm locked in a prison.
And someone else is calling
all the shots in my life
It's the worst feeling in the world...
you can simply not imagine
To put someone through so much is unimaginable
After everything I've been through,
after all I've endured, all I want is my freedom
to be with who I want I can have anyone,
so stop trying to make it look like I can’t
Don't think you can make me settle for you
after you break me as a person
I despise you and all the methods you've used
to keep me from everyone and everything
I have no confidence because of you
Thank you very much for everything
You don't deserve me at all
And if you think what you feel is love
your actions speak more
and you need to get your head examined.
Leave me alone, or next time I see you,
I will scream my head off ....
I remember the twilight of that August evening,
The smell of jasmine along the country road,
The golden moon etched against
the diamonded sky,
And the call of the whip-poor-will
piercing the silence.
But what I remember the most was
The smell of your silky hair against my face,
And the racing of my heart after every kiss,
You imprinted on my chest.
I lay here in bed, alone
Music drifting in through my window,
Fantasizing about you and
Living that moment, again and again and again.
As I walked into the room
I could smell the sweet scent in the air
As it drifted by and around me,
Was it you.
As I walked over to you
I could see your beautiful smile
As you stared back at me
And I needed nothing more.
As I reached for a hug,
My heart raced with excitement,
As we embraced lovingly
Never wanting to let go.
We leaned in to kiss one another,
I could smell you, see you, touch you,
And taste the sweet scent in the air...
I thought to myself yes, it is you...
Then you leaned in and whispered in my ear,
I love you.
Thank you my love for bringing me the joy
that I never thought possible.
My soul lies beyond the clouds and space
That’s where it waits for you; burning bright
Wanting your gentle touch, your warm embrace
The caress of your palms, where everything’s all right.
Spread your wings and fly towards me
Rise to the heavens with your guiding heart
Following the voice of my soul, follow its plea
You’ll never be alone we’ll never be apart
It’s counted every second you’ve been away
Waiting restlessly, faithfully it’ll always wait
For your return to my arm, for you to stay
I’ve always known from the start you’re my fate
So here I am waiting and I’ll wait for a lifetime
Because I’ve known that all I’ve needed is you
My heart’s always wanted you even after all this time
It’s always dreamt of finding a love so true….
I am ready to start my life with you
To become your life partner is my dream come true
I am honored to be the one
You awaken in the morning with gentle kisses
The one when you are far away
Your heart misses
I grow more restless each day
I need you more in every way
And when we say good night
I wish that you were here to hold me tight
The only place I want to be
Is in your loving arms
The only thing I want to see
Is your beautiful smile
And your sensual charm
One day we will make a home together
with the walls of trust, respect, togetherness, desire
&
with the roof of LOVE.
And enjoy the best years of our lives as one
We cherish each precious moment to come
Each day with you is a gift from the lord.
I am yours always and forever
These mere words don't do justice
No matter how hard I endeavor
To pay tribute to this unique bond
That nothing could sever
We are soul-bound, you and I
Timeless, endless, eternal My love for you will never die..Love you loads.
Tell me it can all be changed,
back to that moment when we first kissed.
To that twinke in your eye,
the feeling of eternal bliss.
when we laid in the night,
Holding eachother close.
when you would scrunch ur face,
As I kissed your nose.
Can we rewrite this love,
that of once we shared.
The one of unbreakable vows,
none of hurt or despair.
Wrongful decisions,
I have made in the past.
Taking your fragile heart,
shattering it like glass.
Pain, misery,
lies and deceit.
Has clouded the air,
so thick we cant see.
The pain in your eyes,
has brought me to shame.
The candle once lit,
tears turned off the flame.
I want to reach out,
and bring you back in.
But I know you hurt deeply,
where do I begin?
Can we erase this pain,
that of once we shared.
The one of heartbreak,
loneliness and despair.
My butterfly, Tina,
who flutters so free.
I hold out my hand,
for you to come back to me.
The touch of your hand,
gentile kiss of your lips.
Holding you close,
are a few things I miss.
Looking deep in your eyes,
my heart beats once more.
Saying, "I love you"
to whom I adore.
Nothing can come close,
to that love we had shared.
Without you by my side,
my life is impaired.
Please tell me you want me,
meaningful and true.
For the one that I need,
is none other than you.
Allow me to kiss your tears,
and reignite the flame.
Holding you close,
as I whisper your name.
Can we rewrite this love,
that of one we both miss
The one of unbreakable vows,
and everlasting bliss.
Loving wishes I convey
No matter where you are
Hoping you look tonight
Upon the same bright star
Stars are the gifts above
Which we both can share
As silver paths transport
Wishes from here to there
I wish you sweet dreams
As I view the stars tonight
Each one sent with love
As the moon shone bright
Tonight the stars glisten
With love shining through
Count upon my thoughts
As I will be thinking of you always….
She is always there to hold me
She is always there to heal
Searching for comfort
I couldn't find since my birth,
Now I know She’s the real.
Tears on my plush pillows
Every rainy day and every dreary night,
Sometimes my heart isn't strong enough
But She’s there, willing me to fight.
How strong is one supposed to be?
How can I take this pain?
How long do I wait for you to come
To extinguish my burning flame of love?
I seek HER to help me through this
Begging HER to show me the way
While at the same time desiring you
Yearning to have you near me every single day
I know I broke your heart sometime.
I know I made you cold sometime.
I know I took for granted sometime.
Allow me to repent for the mistakes & forgive me,
Confide me that you loved me by you mind, body, and soul.
A lover and friend, you'll have the best of both the worlds
And true love the way it's meant to be.
She showed me the damage I caused
She showed me my destructive past
She showed me what it means to love
And how to make it lasts.
She asks me to trust in Her
And she’ll make my dreams come trueBut all I want,Love, Desire.
Is one thing....
..Just to be with you.
I am ready to start my life with you
To become your life partner is my dream come true
I am honored to be the one
You awaken in the morning with gentle kisses
The one when you are far away
Your heart misses
I grow more restless each day
I need you more in every way
And when we say good night
I wish that you were here to hold me tight
The only place I want to be
Is in your loving arms
The only thing I want to see
Is your beautiful smile
And your sensual charm
One day we will make a home together
with the walls of trust, respect, togetherness, desire
&
with the roof of LOVE.
And enjoy the best years of our lives as one
We cherish each precious moment to come
Each day with you is a gift from the lord.
I am yours always and forever
These mere words don't do justice
No matter how hard I endeavor
To pay tribute to this unique bond
That nothing could sever
We are soul-bound, you and I
Timeless, endless, eternal My love for you will never die..Love you loads.
