Letting you go

I miss you

Since you’ve gone away

Part of me is missing

I feel it as I lay

 My head down on my pillow

So soft and comforting

But it doesn’t ease the pain

My heart is still hurting
It aches to see you

One last time

To show how much I love you

Yet, I know this is a crime

To want to bring you back

To this hope forsaken land

For suffer, hurt, and pain


In lieu of God’s Heaven

I can’t help

But to think about the world

You tried to protect me from


When I was a young boy

Sometimes I felt resentment

But I wanted you to see

I understand your actions

You did what you did for me

To guide me
Along my journey in life

When no one else was there

To help me cope with strife




You taught me to be strong

And to be aware

Of people’s bad intentions

Their ability to be unfair




I am today

Who I want to be

I don’t take shit from no one

Are you proud of me?

 I’m not the sweet defenseless boy

I started out to be

You made me so much braver

I’m as hard as a rock now

Maybe a little too so


But I wouldn’t trade it for anything

I wanted you to know

I will cherish you

And the memories that I have

Of growing up together


All the good and bad

They make us who we are

And at times they make me laugh

Like, “Hey, Love, look at me!”

While I was falling on my knees

 You will always be with me

You notice, the love in my eyes!

You didn’t feel the pain

I was thinking of you


My children will hear all about you

The funniest guy ever known

They’ll be grabbing their sides from the stories

Then, I will slip away alone


To shed tears for you

Which I’m sure will happen at times

To remember our time together

And read these heart-felt rhymes


I have accepted that you’re gone now

And I have to set you free

No more haunting my dreams

Rest peacefully

 I would still love your visits, though

Every now and then

You are part of my life

And will be to my end.


I have to let go, so………..I’m letting you go.

Happiness & Freedom

I deserve to be happy,

I deserve to feel good from head to toe and not

have someone destroy me

because they think they have a right to me
 I am not a thing or an object

I deserve to be free and love who I want

and not be punished because of

what I want or feel
I deserve the peace that comes from

feeling wanted (not by you)

I deserve to gain life experience

I deserve to have a gf (not you)

and get to know her, and talk,

and go out often, and be chased by her,

and be hugged by her,

and be kissed by her.
I have never cuddled

I don't know how it feels to have that security

Teenagers have relationships and I can't have it

I don't want it from you.


You had your chance

You had tons of chances

I want someone else and
I will go to great lengthsto get you out of my life.


I can't live like this

It is making me sick

I deserve my freedom

To not have someone watching me all the time

and controlling all the details in my life


I deserve to have things that are just for me

No one can interfere

They remain my secrets

I deserve my freedom so I can have my health

I deserve to have who I want.


Not someone who is trying

to force their love on me

I want so badly to have my freedom

it is making me sick and
the despair and feeling of helplessness,
like I'm locked in a prison.


And someone else is calling

all the shots in my life

It's the worst feeling in the world...

you can simply not imagine

To put someone through so much is unimaginable


After everything I've been through,

after all I've endured, all I want is my freedom

to be with who I want I can have anyone,

so stop trying to make it look like I can’t


Don't think you can make me settle for you

after you break me as a person

I despise you and all the methods you've used
to keep me from everyone and everything


I have no confidence because of you

Thank you very much for everything

You don't deserve me at all

And if you think what you feel is love

your actions speak more
and you need to get your head examined.


Leave me alone, or next time I see you,

I will scream my head off ....