You bite my neck and I like It a lot,

you make It feel good
DAMN It really hits the spot!
you whisper In my ear my beautiful lady love,
you say I shouldn't love you
and I don't know why,
your voice Is so pure and so true,
It's hard to believe that you love me too,
every kiss you give so soft and delicious,
It tastes so good, It's really nutritious,
each bite you give me doesn't hurt one bit,
each time you bite me I don't even throw a fit,
you say my blood Is so sweet and nice,
to you It tastes just like sugar and spice,
I love when you bite me, kiss me, hug me too,
I especially love It when you say
"I LOVE YOU"

Rest in peace

I wish you were here again,

we had so much fun towards the end,
i cried for you every night,
why did you have to see the light?
it shouldn't have been time for you to go,
there was so many things
you were suppose to know,
you were suppose to live your life,
and one day become a beautiful wife,
you were the one i was able to look up to,
all the things you helped me get through,
your hugs i miss them very much,
i would do most anything
just to feel your touch,
your laugh is all i wish to hear,
whether it can be far or near,
best friends we promised till the end,
but we didn't get alot of time to spend,
i wish you were here right now,
if only i could bring you back some how,
i would turn the hands of time back around,
you're the best friend i had ever found,
i miss you alot i really do,
i miss you alot..and i love you too...

Everyday i wish you were here,

just so you can whisper in my ear,
right now i just feel so alone,
is there any place that i can call home?
in your arms is where i want to be,
and you can be right here lying next to me,
in your arms is where i belong,
while you can sing to me your beautiful song,
I want to hold hands with you

and walk on the beach,
while giving you kisses..i hope i can reach,
you are so bright and beautiful,
is there any place you haven't been?
I want to travel the world someday,
hoping to find you on my way,
I pray to god you are the one,
my prince charming to become,
but for now I'll love you from afar,
and I'll always love you with all my heart...

Not just a dream

Lying still in bed

Thoughts running through my head
Blush on my cheeks

As I continue to think
About how you make me feel
So happy
I love the way you smile


And that I can make you do it
I love our talks
And your laugh
I want to be next to you


To hold you close
And know that you are real
Not just a dream
You’re not just a dream
You're my lady love

Letting go

Today I found out that your feelings
for me are gone


They will no longer be here,
so I have to be strong
But the truth is, our feelings aren’t the same
My feelings for you still remain




I’m going to miss the times we were together
Saying our love would last forever
I never thought your love for me would end
And now I’m left with pain that will never mend






I wish I could see you one last time
So I can see what was once mine
I can still imagine you standing next to me
But I know it will never go back
to the way it used to be






And ever since that summer day
My love for you will always stay
But those are feelings I can no longer show
Because today, you let me go

That night we were together

That night we were together
I wished it went forever
And when you where laying next to me
I felt like I was in a fantasy
Being next to someone so beautiful like you
Made my dreams come true


I had so much to say
But I just let you walk away
I was so close
And that what hurts the most


But I don’t know what to do

now I’m not next to you
Because I need you here
I need you near forever & ever.
I love you.

I hate how

How come some days are so easy?

Then some days I feel like dying
How can I be so strong one day?
Then the next I am holding myself back
Back from picking up the phone






I want to move on
I want to forget you
But I feel like it's impossible
My heart is addicted to you
It knows nothing but you






Once the pain starts to go away
You fill my heart back up with agony
I have to come to terms with myself
That you loved her more
You still want her more


And it's sad cause you really have no idea
That I was so much more true to you
But I was so weak
And she was strong






Why must is be so difficult
How come I can walk away
from anyone but you?
What is done is done and I must let you go
But I am afraid that one day you might return
And crumble me back into peices






I have to stay strong
If and when you return
I will be ready
To crumble you into peices...

I am the guy

Yes love I am the guy to whom you were dreaming &

wondering if things could be like they were before...
only if i could talk to you in person
holding u close through the night...
It was the most amazing night
kissing ur sleepy eyes
kissing ur lips and gazing in ur eyes
feeling ur smile fill my soul

It was a loving of surprise
maybe it was just that i love u jaan forever
and my loving is always so fresh
yes all i want the most is for you to be happy.


Maybe we don't have all these things
my LOVE will always be as fresh for u
in my dreams i will always be with u...

jaan i love you...

When you are kissed by me

When you are kissed by me

Not only it's your mouth
not only just your neck
not only just your forehead,
not only just your back..


When you are kissed by me
I kiss you million times
all desires
all scares
all doubts
till all of them are mine.


I kiss the love you give me
For each and every day
that leaves a smile right on me
when I try to go my way.


I kiss the rights and wrongs of your’s,
making unique from the rest
Although they might cause wrangling
But I know the ending would be the best.

My love for you

My love for you, you cannot measure

Every moment with you being with me
I treasure.


My love for you I cannot hide
I need you close to my side
Cause I can't stand to be apart
You’re too close to my heart


So please don’t say “NO”
Or my heart will die
The love you can give
Is what let's me live.

Listen..

Whispers in the night,

From a voice so deep with in.
Saying listen to me cry.


Don't you care for me anymore?
Or am I too much for you to endure?


Lately you've been very unsure
of the path you musttake.


When will you see yourown mistake?
Love me more than you
OR love me.
Listen to me I say,
Pain is who you've become.
Tears have been falling from your eyes,


For quite a while.
It's time for you to grow.
Only by letting go of the pain,


Will you be able to find yourway.
Listen you forgot to put me first.
That’s why it hurts.


I am you wanting to be set  free.
Listen!!!

Loving you forever...

Yes this silence is what you wanted
wondering if things could be like they were before...
only if i could talk to you in person
holding u close through the night...


It was the most amazing night
kissing ur sleepy eyes
kissing ur lips and gazing in ur eyes
feeling ur smile fill my soul
it was a loving of surprise
maybe it was just that i love u jaan forever
and my loving is always so fresh
yes all i want the most is for you to be happy.
Maybe we don't have all these things
my LOVE will always be as fresh for u
in my dreams i will always be with u...
jaan i love you...

It's You my love.

I find myself watching sunsets

trying to find your face in them.
I find myself reading books
I've never read before
trying to find new words for you.
I try new foods searching for a recipe
that is just for you
I listen to the birds singing
trying to find a song just for you.


When I feel the wind on my skin
I feel you touching me
When the sun warms my skin
I know it's your breath warming me
When I walk in the rain
I know it's your love showering me
When my feet sinks into the sand
I know that I'm falling for you.

The Queen of my heart

I am in love with you
You are the Queen of my heart
And with each day that passes


I realize that without you
My life feels empty
I crave for your special touch
And long to rest in the comfort of your arms






I am in love with you
And even though my heart breaks
With each day that passes
I realize that you are worth waiting for


And I will wait for day
Until the window is open
And you rule my heart again

Letting you go

I miss you

Since you’ve gone away

Part of me is missing

I feel it as I lay

 My head down on my pillow

So soft and comforting

But it doesn’t ease the pain

My heart is still hurting
It aches to see you

One last time

To show how much I love you

Yet, I know this is a crime

To want to bring you back

To this hope forsaken land

For suffer, hurt, and pain


In lieu of God’s Heaven

I can’t help

But to think about the world

You tried to protect me from


When I was a young boy

Sometimes I felt resentment

But I wanted you to see

I understand your actions

You did what you did for me

To guide me
Along my journey in life

When no one else was there

To help me cope with strife




You taught me to be strong

And to be aware

Of people’s bad intentions

Their ability to be unfair




I am today

Who I want to be

I don’t take shit from no one

Are you proud of me?

 I’m not the sweet defenseless boy

I started out to be

You made me so much braver

I’m as hard as a rock now

Maybe a little too so


But I wouldn’t trade it for anything

I wanted you to know

I will cherish you

And the memories that I have

Of growing up together


All the good and bad

They make us who we are

And at times they make me laugh

Like, “Hey, Love, look at me!”

While I was falling on my knees

 You will always be with me

You notice, the love in my eyes!

You didn’t feel the pain

I was thinking of you


My children will hear all about you

The funniest guy ever known

They’ll be grabbing their sides from the stories

Then, I will slip away alone


To shed tears for you

Which I’m sure will happen at times

To remember our time together

And read these heart-felt rhymes


I have accepted that you’re gone now

And I have to set you free

No more haunting my dreams

Rest peacefully

 I would still love your visits, though

Every now and then

You are part of my life

And will be to my end.


I have to let go, so………..I’m letting you go.

Happiness & Freedom

I deserve to be happy,

I deserve to feel good from head to toe and not

have someone destroy me

because they think they have a right to me
 I am not a thing or an object

I deserve to be free and love who I want

and not be punished because of

what I want or feel
I deserve the peace that comes from

feeling wanted (not by you)

I deserve to gain life experience

I deserve to have a gf (not you)

and get to know her, and talk,

and go out often, and be chased by her,

and be hugged by her,

and be kissed by her.
I have never cuddled

I don't know how it feels to have that security

Teenagers have relationships and I can't have it

I don't want it from you.


You had your chance

You had tons of chances

I want someone else and
I will go to great lengthsto get you out of my life.


I can't live like this

It is making me sick

I deserve my freedom

To not have someone watching me all the time

and controlling all the details in my life


I deserve to have things that are just for me

No one can interfere

They remain my secrets

I deserve my freedom so I can have my health

I deserve to have who I want.


Not someone who is trying

to force their love on me

I want so badly to have my freedom

it is making me sick and
the despair and feeling of helplessness,
like I'm locked in a prison.


And someone else is calling

all the shots in my life

It's the worst feeling in the world...

you can simply not imagine

To put someone through so much is unimaginable


After everything I've been through,

after all I've endured, all I want is my freedom

to be with who I want I can have anyone,

so stop trying to make it look like I can’t


Don't think you can make me settle for you

after you break me as a person

I despise you and all the methods you've used
to keep me from everyone and everything


I have no confidence because of you

Thank you very much for everything

You don't deserve me at all

And if you think what you feel is love

your actions speak more
and you need to get your head examined.


Leave me alone, or next time I see you,

I will scream my head off ....

Missing You

I remember the twilight of that August evening,
The smell of jasmine along the country road,
The golden moon etched against

the diamonded sky,


And the call of the whip-poor-will

piercing the silence.
But what I remember the most was

The smell of your silky hair against my face,

And the racing of my heart after every kiss,


You imprinted on my chest.
I lay here in bed, alone

Music drifting in through my window,

Fantasizing about you and


Living that moment, again and again and again.

Five senses..

As I walked into the room

I could smell the sweet scent in the air

As it drifted by and around me,

Was it you.


As I walked over to you

I could see your beautiful smile

As you stared back at me

And I needed nothing more.

As I reached for a hug,


My heart raced with excitement,

As we embraced lovingly

Never wanting to let go.

We leaned in to kiss one another,


I could smell you, see you, touch you,

And taste the sweet scent in the air...

I thought to myself yes, it is you...

Then you leaned in and whispered in my ear,

I love you.






Thank you my love for bringing me the joy

that I never thought possible.